My prayer was that it was going to be a blessing for her and our entire family. Do you ever second guess things that you felt were placed on your heart from GOD??
Oh I have.....and it has only been 8 weeks!!!
When I am faced everyday after school with the same arguing between my three oldest children, when I continue to to feel like my kids aren't respectful of my husband and I, and we feel like the worldly things are taking over our family. I feel like I want to say, this isn't worth it, I have given up so much to be home with my daughter while the other three are in school and NOTHING has changed.
It is then, that this beautiful song comes to my mind.
Change my heart oh God,
Make it ever true.
Change my heart oh God,
May I be like You.
You are the potter,
I am the clay,
Mold me and make me,
This is what I pray.
Then, I look at myself, and I think of all the things I pray for God to CHANGE IN ME. I pray that people in my life, the most important one, which is my husband doesn't give up on me. We are told that God will never give up on us and I want to be like Him.
I have to remind myself this is a blessing to have a daughter who wants this time with me, FOR WHATEVER REASON, and I have to endure and be patient.
Proverbs 22:6 says Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.
Whether or not I see a noticeable change in how my daughter responds with her siblings, I know that I am with her every morning, in the word, studing a Christian curriculum with the ability to hear of how God has worked in the lives of so many people that have been life changers spreading God's word and doing great works for Him. I believe that this will shape her spiritual life and will HAVE IMPACT in whatever dreams she has and whatever mission God reveals to her for her future.
So today, even with the doubt and fear, I still pray to connect, strengthen, encourage, grow and focus on her!!!
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