Is this happening and am I really here? Five days ago myself and two of my children {the two that are homeschooling} arrived in FL to start the longest vacation I have ever had. This first week would be our first time in our condo that we purchased almost one year ago, it has been rented every month since we purchased it. So, I am considering this week a WORK WEEK, although WORK it is hardly because this is all FUN for me!!! I couldn't wait to paint the walls which needed some TLC, or go shopping for some decor that was more our style. This is a DREAM COME TRUE to have an investment property, for me to manage our investment property, and to actually fix it up a little, in SUNNY, WARM, FL!!! To spend time here IN DECEMBER makes me smile!!! Over the last few years, last year expecially, I started to dread the months that my plants were buried in the snow, pulling out the winter gear, after flying through the summer realizing that we only golfed once or twice and wishing we would have eaten out on the patio more, went swimming more, or to the lake.
Having been born and raised in CA and now calling my home MN for the last 15 years, getting married and having 4 kiddos in a 6 years span I have realized that I love the sun and warm weather. During the crazy times of raising small children, I think winter was a little break for me but now I want to do the things I LOVE like garden, golf, take walks, sit in the sun {with sun block of course}, and swim.
So, the dream that I was dreaming is now a reality.....am I really HERE and why do I feel guilty of the blessings?? Every morning I wake up and come out to our balcony {IN DECEMBER} and the sun is shining, hovering around 60 degrees in the morning and 80 mid day, and I can hardly believe it. How did I get here? Do I deserve this???
Back at home, my husband and two public school kiddos are getting ready to join us but wouldn't you know that right before I left after waiting three years to do our kitchen remodel on our home, we decided to get the ball rolling!!!! And of course the builder tells us...better to start now then waiting because the cabinet maker has some jobs lined up that will push you out a few months if you wait. RIGHT, we should start right now, I was already out of town as my husband was working and being Mr. MOM with the other two kiddos and now {HE} has to pack up our kitchen, dining room and living area. I don't like that he is having to do this all on his own but I LOVE the thought of having work started on the kitchen while we are gone!!
So, I am in FL for a long vacation, back at home my desire for that beautiful new kitchen is getting started, I am blessed with a husband that works hard, and is smart....should I be feeling guilty of the blessings?
I don't want to feel guilty I want to feel blessed, I want to feel that we have lost, we have made bad decisions, we have learned, we have had struggles, we have grown, we have survived, we give, we share, we care, we set goals, we work together, we have dreams for our family and we have desires to fill our hearts, my husband WORKS HARD and NEVER GIVES UP, honors GOD, puts him first and doesn't put his success before his family. So, I choose to be THANKFUL, to continue to bless others, to put GOD first above all things and to continue to work hard and try and do what is right.
So, one thing that I want to do with all that I have learned throughout my journey is to ENCOURAGE you to never give up...NEVER!!! You never know which way the road will turn, never stop dreaming and working towards even the smallest of goals. And look back for just a minute to see how far you have come, all that you have accomplished, be thankful, be prayerful and then look forward to what your future will hold!!!
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